Stopping the Cycle for the Next Generation: depression as a mom

Baby#1The hardest part I found with having a baby was the social isolation. I didn’t know if I was depressed in general or had postpartum depression. At the hospital they told me, “You’re more likely to struggle with postpartum depression if you have a history of depression.” Then they gave me a panphlet on it….

Spiritual Warfare

She had been involved in witchcraft, and Alice and I felt she had put a curse on us. I heard a screeching in the middle of the night that sounded like a demon leaving my roommate. A man my friend Alice was dating had sudden back pain that left him in bed some days and…

Married to a Psychologist

At age 26, I married my personal psychologist. No, I didn’t meet him in counseling. But he did have a degree in psychology. James had been a bartender for quite a while-which is pretty much like being a psychologist, in a sense. He had been my close friend four years leading up to our wedding….

Suicidal Thoughts

After being in East Asia for a month, I woke up one night, and I couldn’t get thoughts of suicide off my mind. I went to the bathroom so as not to wake my roommate. My fingers quickly slid open my Bible, hoping to hear a Word from the Lord through whatever I randomly read…

The Shame of Depression

Crying at school is one thing, but I couldn’t stop crying! As a sophomore in high school, my teacher sent me to the school nurse, who sent me to see my mom (since she was a teacher). My mom let me stay in her office and cry it out…at first. But after one class period,…

A Sense of Solidarity

It’s not easy. I feel like by sharing my story, “depression” becomes my label. And that label has a stigma attached to it. People think, “mentally ill,” “nutcase,” “can’t be trusted,” “emotionally unstable.” It’s not like sharing about drugs or alcohol or even a rocky time in your marriage as if it were a thing…

Storybook Bibles

Within the first two years of my daughter’s life, my husband and I read through nearly 10 different Children’s Story Bibles. Ultimately we came to the same conclusion about all of them. None of them can or should completely replace actually reading God’s Word to your children. Yes, I’ll go ahead and give you an…

Joy of Serving

Recently at a family gathering, I found I would be almost done with one task when someone would holler at me, “hey, it’s time for you to do the one thing!” Then I’d nearly be done with that when someone else would holler at me, “oh, it’s time for the other thing-You’re in charge of…

If not for God…

“Some of you were once like that. But you were cleansed; you were made holy; you were made right with God by calling on the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.” -1 Corinthians 6:11 NLT Paul describes in this chapter of 1 Corinthians, about the wide variety of…

Heavenly Reward

I was reading the Sermon on the Mount today (Matthew 5-7) and kept thinking about how counter-cultural everything was that Jesus said! He spoke in such a way like he was not bound by the world’s ways. It’s crazy! Then all the sudden it hit me like a ton of bricks. The way this man…