I meditated on a verse as I waited for the doctor to see me. Everything seemed routine with my third pregnancy, until the doctor walked in that day and told me my baby wouldn’t make it. I immediately forgot the verse I had been thinking about and simply bawled. “It might all be fine, right?” I asked, or rather, pleaded.
“I don’t want to get your hopes up, but probably not,” the doctor responded. For the record, fyi, this was not my normal doctor and because of that incident, I never saw that doctor again.
I cried some more as I left the office, 28 weeks pregnant. As I sat in my car, tears still falling as I prepared to drive home, the Lord reminded me of the verse I had been meditating on just before the doctor walked in with bad news.
“I am the LORD your God, who stirs up the sea and it’s waves roar…” (Isaiah 51:15).
I had been thinking about how mighty and big and powerful and in control God was and is. Then the doctor gave me bad news. The Lord used that verse to remind me that He had the final say, not any doctor. God was still good and I still needed to trust Him.
I still asked my Bible study ladies to pray for my baby. I thought of naming him Zacchaeus, since I was told he was too small to survive. But I felt the Lord say to me, “have you no faith?” So another name was chosen.
While some other doctors had concerns about his size, no one else pronounced a death sentence over him like that one doctor. I worried, but tried to trust the Lord. At his birth, a nurse said to me, after much whispering amongst the hospital staff, “I guess everyone is surprised by his weight!”
He was a full term six pound healthy baby boy! This month, he will turn four years old, and he is such a joy.
The Lord is God Almighty. “He stirs up the sea and it’s waves roar,” (Isaiah 51:15). He who is in control of the seas is in control of you and your family and your diagnosis and situation. He has the ultimate say. Not the doctor. Not the diagnoses. Not the earthly judge. God knows. God sees. God can help your situation. Trust Him with your life and see where He leads.